*hugs* Honey, you had a TERRIBLE day - shrieking? Directed, sustained shrieking AT you? Plus the emotional theatrics and the stress and the ugh. Give yourself a break. You said something snarky - it slipped out after a few drinks, and I bet you realized as soon as it passed your lips that it was hurtful and should have stayed inside. Give yourself a hug, give L a hug, and revel in the peace and quiet for a little while. It's ok, and it's going to be ok.

I get in cycles where I beat myself up, too - my therapist likened it to driving a car into a ditch by accident and then sitting there among the muck and beer cans and weeds. Sometimes, you just gotta move on. It sure isn't great that you got into the ditch, but it's better to leave it behind. *all the hugs*